man...i am so behind in pictures...our camera is on the blitz...oh, if money grew on trees...or if God didn't call me to home school and we actually had what some refer to as: spending money!?
don't worry; i would not trade the time i have with my kiddos for all the spending money in the world...so please forgive my lack of cute pictures! i'll just have to make up for them with charm and wit! oops...well...i hope you just love me for me!
had to share a couple things:
mermaid: favorite books to carry to bed are her assortment of Bibles...every night she falls asleep with an open Bible in her lap...beautiful.
j-bob: has finally fallen in love with reading. he is reading everything. his favorites right now are curious george, froggy books, and this early reader series about a granpa telling anti-itch stories to his grand pup who has chicken pox.
family: OA bought Uno Attack, and we are having the best times playing this card game...even mermaid does well. i am quite sure we have played no less than 100 times since yesterday afternoon.
misc: my mom had the kiddos for an errand yesterday morning...she called to say they had done a U-turn to go to the pumpkin patch and would be a few minutes later than expected. the kiddos got to literally pick their own pumpkins off the stem...as i hung up the phone i realized how blessed i am to have a mom who is willing to pause her busy day to do a U-turn for a memory for her gi-babies. (and how much more blessed are my kiddos!)
God is good...i am drinking in this time of my life...i am quite sure it cannot get any better. my children are blossoming, and it is quite amazing observing their relationship with a real and living God unfold.
i am quite sure that OA is secretly, and not so secretly falling in love with our way of life. though it is different from most and financially uncomfortable...it is eternally blessed!
My Quivers
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Reflections...redemption
This season of my life has included allot of reflection. It's rather odd how God uses your past to move you in your future. A word has finally taken hold of meaning...tangible meaning...in my heart: redeemed. I have always understood forgiveness and sanctification, but I am quite sure that until now I have never truly understood redemption. I guess I have always limited it...I have never struggled with God's Grace in redemption of my sin...but it never seemed to dawn on me that God can redeem more than my sin...He can redeem the sins of others that have scarred me. And by redeem I don't mean...just use for the good...I mean...REDEEM...only God's Grace and Mercy can make painful events of my past seem insignificant in light of the incredible blessings and gifts He has given me.
As I sit on my couch in front of a fire feeling exhausted from the week's demands, I sip my decaf green tea with raspberry emergen-C, and pray I am not getting sick. I feel so incredibly exhausted. Which brings me back to reflection.
By nature I do allot of reflecting, but this season of my life has been nothing much but. To prepare for my speech, I went back to the beginning of my blog entries. Oh how quickly I forget the days of anguishing over trying to figure out what's wrong with my child, to fighting and then receiving a diagnosis, to spending countless hours on the internet researching, and to only feeling connection with strangers on Yahoo forums. The diet, the supplements, the therapies, the entire year of kindergarten in public school and then Mermaid...the six months of complete hell watching her behavior escalate into a terrible frenzy spiraling out of control. And where did that leave my marriage? Lonely, isolated, bitter, exhausted, and on the back burner of priorities. We had children to fight for...who had time to fight for a marriage, too.
And where did that leave God? I think we were all clinging to Him separately...and it all finally fell back into place when I started reflecting on my past...my intimacy issues...which was kind of forced upon me by a cross-roads of sort in my marriage. Again...God's redemption...so incredible. We both decided from that day forward to bring God back into our marriage...FULLY. And once that decision had been made...God began to take me to places of reflection that I didn't think I ever needed to go...dangerous places...places my heart buried deep within. I have a story...don't we all...and some day...maybe I will share it...but for now...I simply sit...in total awe at His ability to redeem abandonment, abuse, and years of bad choices due to both.
I have lived so much of my life in fear and trembling...and for many years...for due reason...but as an adult...I still find myself looking over my shoulder...but I think I am finally moving past that. Into a new season...a season of trust...a season of redemption. If God can redeem my sins, all the more power He holds to redeem my heart.
As I sit on my couch in front of a fire feeling exhausted from the week's demands, I sip my decaf green tea with raspberry emergen-C, and pray I am not getting sick. I feel so incredibly exhausted. Which brings me back to reflection.
By nature I do allot of reflecting, but this season of my life has been nothing much but. To prepare for my speech, I went back to the beginning of my blog entries. Oh how quickly I forget the days of anguishing over trying to figure out what's wrong with my child, to fighting and then receiving a diagnosis, to spending countless hours on the internet researching, and to only feeling connection with strangers on Yahoo forums. The diet, the supplements, the therapies, the entire year of kindergarten in public school and then Mermaid...the six months of complete hell watching her behavior escalate into a terrible frenzy spiraling out of control. And where did that leave my marriage? Lonely, isolated, bitter, exhausted, and on the back burner of priorities. We had children to fight for...who had time to fight for a marriage, too.
And where did that leave God? I think we were all clinging to Him separately...and it all finally fell back into place when I started reflecting on my past...my intimacy issues...which was kind of forced upon me by a cross-roads of sort in my marriage. Again...God's redemption...so incredible. We both decided from that day forward to bring God back into our marriage...FULLY. And once that decision had been made...God began to take me to places of reflection that I didn't think I ever needed to go...dangerous places...places my heart buried deep within. I have a story...don't we all...and some day...maybe I will share it...but for now...I simply sit...in total awe at His ability to redeem abandonment, abuse, and years of bad choices due to both.
I have lived so much of my life in fear and trembling...and for many years...for due reason...but as an adult...I still find myself looking over my shoulder...but I think I am finally moving past that. Into a new season...a season of trust...a season of redemption. If God can redeem my sins, all the more power He holds to redeem my heart.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Please Pray
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Tomorrow I will be speaking as a parent's testimonial for a Sensory Processing Disorder Awareness conference. I am petrified as public speaking is not my forte. Just asking for all my faithful blog readers and dear friends to remember me around 2 pm tomorrow.
Big sigh...it is quite remarkable when you given the opportunity to be stretched and at the same time be used to be the hands and feet of God.
I so desperately need to update. My life is so full and so wonderful. I had to go back to my first blog entries to prepare for my "speech", and it was incredibly humbling for me to see how far God has brought my sweet little family.
I will try to post some pics from tomorrow if we get some! Thanks in advance for the prayers!!
Tomorrow I will be speaking as a parent's testimonial for a Sensory Processing Disorder Awareness conference. I am petrified as public speaking is not my forte. Just asking for all my faithful blog readers and dear friends to remember me around 2 pm tomorrow.
Big sigh...it is quite remarkable when you given the opportunity to be stretched and at the same time be used to be the hands and feet of God.
I so desperately need to update. My life is so full and so wonderful. I had to go back to my first blog entries to prepare for my "speech", and it was incredibly humbling for me to see how far God has brought my sweet little family.
I will try to post some pics from tomorrow if we get some! Thanks in advance for the prayers!!
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