writer's block

i'm quite certain that it stems from lack of gluten, casein, or soy. i'm finally getting serious about my diet. too many "issues" have cropped up; the most significant one including blood. not gonna play around with intestinal bleeding. God has given my an answer of my strange illnesses. ridiculous for me to continue to ignore them so that i can indulge my cravings.

and when i say cravings...i mean: CRAVINGS.

my body is literally burning inside for something...anything...everything it cannot have. it is intense and relentless and irritating. but i am not going to succumb. and this time...when i finally make it over this volatile hill of flesh vs will power...i pray that i will not u-turn back into bad habits!

so say a prayer...more for my children and spouse! and much love on this lovely love weekend!

Great newly discovered blog!

The year of Jay-Bob's diagnosis I picked up knitting. There's something soothing about the clink-swish-clink-swish-yarn-between-my-fingers. I would get lost in knit and purl stitches...started sharing my time on the local book stores special needs section's floor with the local hobby stores...I would pace the aisles of yarn...touching them and dreaming of what they could become...breathing in all of their possibilities.

Looking back it is so obvious the appeal of transforming a ball of yarn into a beautiful project was so similar to having a child trapped in his own mind. The gentle art of transformation...or not so gentle in the world of autism. The last few years have amazed me.

Anyhow, Jay-man is getting better; we will always have certain hurdles to jump and quirky characteristics that will forever linger, but I am finding in my projects that are the hardest to complete, fraught with frustrating do-overs, and left with several scars of my inadequacies that only I the creator and fellow more experienced crafters will notice are by far my most favorite!

Mermaid must have sensed that I love challenges...HA...as her non-diagnosable issues led me to sewing! In all seriousness, I have stumbled upon MANY AMAZING new blogs. There's just something about creative women! There are several on my blog list; be sure to take some time and get acquainted! There's one that has stuck out the most, and she is fast approaching her goal of 400 followers. Please take a moment to view her blog: Noodlehead. But beware...you may end up asking for a sewing machine for Valentine's Day!!

running playlist

So I have been dying to post my running playlist here for others to enjoy and add suggestions...well...here it is:

oh wait...

nothing??

crap...what did I DO??

oh, that's right...I went and erased THE ENTIRE THING on accident whilst trying to post.

ARGH.

well...to be continued!!

In the mean time, what are your favorite songs to exercise to?

Snow Day...in pics

Imagine what I could do with a working camera and powerful lens...until then...I dream and capture best I can.

the name game

The kiddos are into that silly name-rhyme game in which one changes up the first sound of someone's name.

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We cycle through every favorite person and pet imaginable in about a thirty minute time frame. Well, today Mermaid came running into the room breathless from going through her own list of favorite animals and excitedly exclaimed: Mom, Mom...do God!!!!!!

I paused. I was initially stuck in "grown up mind". I was worried that doing "God's name" would somehow be sacrilegious or wrong. I mean...He IS...the I AM. Am I really allowed to do His name to the name game song? Then I un-paused...realizing that my daughter is so in love with Him, that she cannot wait to add Him to her list of favorite people...I mean...He was mixed in there with the dogs...her most holy of holy. When we were finished she left...then she came running back in the room and further announced: Mom, Mom...do you think God is laughing?? Her smile was incredible. I asked her if she was happy thinking about Him and playing her favorite game with Him...she nodded gleefully..."well then, I bet He is!"

We do history starting from Genesis for our home school. Going through history...the Bible...is so profoundly exciting when you do it with your children. I have never experienced God like I am experiencing Him through the fresh unconditional eyes of my precious children. I look forward to reading my Bible in One Year Blog this year...whereas, last year, it was just something to accomplish (I didn't even get through Jan). God is a Hero, a knight in shining armor. His-tory is a beautiful love story...written for us...it's tragic, epic, life changing.

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How I love Him so!!