and for me the dishing would be in the form of advice...
about food, chemicals in food, hidden sensitivities to food, sensory issues, behavioral issues...and...drum roll please...not settling for a mediocre life...
the last...mediocrocrity...something i have feared most my life...what sets the mediocre person apart from the non-mediocre? i believe it's simple: perspective and passion
the ability to have the proper perspective of thankfulness and love...and then the passion to act on each of these...there are many things i am passionate about...many...and not just sort-of-passionate...no...i am the OVER-THE-TOP-IN-YOUR-FACE-PASSIONATE...problem is...that kind of passion gets exhausting and overwhelming when it pulls me into....hmmm...i would guess no less than 10 different directions...so as i just caught myself telling a perfect stranger in a blog comment...to basically...live every moment...more than live...experience...experience life...i had to stop...take a deep inventoried breath...and ask: do i do that? really...really experience life?
i hope so...i want to make every moment count...by doing that i have to slow the dreamer in me down a bit and speed the perfectionist waiting til every aspect of every detail is properly aligned with the cosmos up...feed the flesh a little less...and the spirit a little more...love everyone i meet...i mean really really loving them...stopping my thoughts...listening to their long stories...not from politness..rather..real interest...realize that where i am today...right now...this very second...is where He wants me to be...in His amazing Grace and Mercy...sigh...it's when i do these things...i feel fulfilled...
do i still want to run a marathon and have an orphanage in africa someday...learn to sew hippie skirts...knit pokemon toys for my kiddos...rescue every unloved child...re-beak every de-beaked chicken...(and thank the one who graciously gave her life for the jay-man to lick)...sigh...sigh...sigh...sigh...
i want it all...but today...i am a wife...a mother...a daughter...a sister...a friend...in hick-ville usa...traveling only as far as the nearest wal-mart store requires...sigh...and the scary part is...i like it...sometimes i am not sure...am i experiencing life...or is life experiencing me?
i hope it's both...
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