today my little brother was "officially" sworn in as a lawyer...sigh...i have too many thoughts...feelings...emotions...memories...to even begin a proper introduction to my little brother...
i have always been fiercely protective of him...years ago...i wrote this poem...
begging to stay-
never knowing as we
pulled away i would soon
forget the touch of a daddy's hand,
the comfort in his protection...
instead, learning to fear
those very things
father traded in for step
leaving daddy to be such a
sacred word
kisses of innocence replaced
by acts of lust
hands that held me traded for
hands that hurt-
me and my family
(such a small unit)
founded on fear
so small as i watched my
mother's life damaged
heard her screams-surrounded with my own-
knowing so young
i would not have a youth
seeing my brother destroyed at
the hands of a jealous man
attempting to beat all
recognition of my dad from him.
my little brother...
whom i would live to
protect and nurture.
my seed of happiness planted in a soil
of instability
growing into a man
a future father
who will not run away
from responsibility,
who will not beat and destroy
his family
who will not molest his child's innocence.
instead,
who will be harvested into a Father.
today is a happy day...not sure why my mind brought me to these past words...feelings...emotions...
i think...we have to remember where we've been...to really appreciate where we are...
today...i have an amazing family...my brother is an amazing father...husband...man...and my mom is safe...happy...loved...
i am sure God has a reason for me to share such incredibly personal history...just know...who ever it is that needs to read this...God is big...very very big...He saves, protects, and loves...call on Him...He will answer you...i promise...my family's life...we've overcome...by His Grace and His Mercy...
our past may hurt...but our present can heal...through His Love and Tenderness...we never suffer alone...He can turns our sorrow into dancing...we just have to listen for His music!!
Oh, God...I love and thank You!!
1 comment:
Congrats to your brother! What a great success story!
I did your little poll ~ in my opinion, if you put him in special ed, he will get the occupational therapy and speech pathologist at school. Then you can be in charge of nutrition. Nutrition, by the way, has yielded bigger results than anything in my boys. But they need school, too. :)
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