soooooooooooooo......jaden starts public school august 19, 2008...
WHAT!!??? what about all those reasons and signs from God??????
well...here's the bottom line...i am pretty sure i have been guilty...for at least the whole summer...of manipulating the "signs" to read what i wanted them to read. i, granolachic-extraordinaire, am hereby officially fessing up to the utmost of neurosis: i don't want my babies to grow up...i don't trust my babies with anyone...and the clincher...i realized that this whole time...i don't think i have been trusting my babies with...God.
yep, hard to believe, i am sure.
for countless reasons that i am not going to bore my faithful reader with...i believe (the un-twisted version) that God is asking me to trust Him...trust Him in my son's new teacher...trust Him in my son's abilities...trust Him in my son's disabilities...simply...trust Him.
i will add...my anxiety is kind of reaching an all time high...but i refuse to let satan tap into my obvious weakness...and i am believing that God will also relieve my high state of anxiety...as that is not true trust...it's trust with an addendum...with some..."but remembers" and "don't forgets"...sigh...sigh...sigh...
don't you think God laughs at our memos...
ah...but doesn't He relish in our complete surrender?!
slow-inhale-slower-exhale-anxiety-releasing-God-trusting-sigh
3 comments:
Ahhh...complete surrender, complete trust...truly the beginning of freedom.
Well, that is exciting! I'll be praying he has an awesome year!
There is so much to weigh, deciding on how best to raise and educate your children. We are very blessed to live in a country and in a time where we have lots of different ways that we can accomplish it, and the freedom to make our own decision. I wish the best for your family as you prepare for Jaden to start school!
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