should be cleaning...

ahh...i could get used to this whole not working and sending the kids off to school business! my house is a complete DISASTER. j-bob got his first tardy slip at school and my former boss was the watch-dog dad greeting the cars...i was mortified when i looked at the inside of my car...it looked like book bags, lunch boxes, and toy boxes puked inside my car. well, that's kind of how my house looks except include toilet bowl rings.

i did get all the trash out of my car...i did grocery shop...which in my defense takes twice the amount of time allowing me to read all the labels...as mermaid likes other food than j-bob so now i am having to edit her grocery items, too.

so the day before yesterday, mermaid had a dietary infractions AND didn't get an enzyme...within hours she was screaming that her booty itched and all details aside...i honestly had an out of body experience in order to deal with the following three hours. in the morning, i called her therapist and my friend...who should be paid to be my therapist...crying. my friend is an AMAZING mother in Christ...and parents exactly the way i think God designed...so i took many wonderful notes and readily accepted her advice. she encouraged me in many ways as far as discipline, but also supported the dietary changes.

well, yesterday we had a completely gfcfsf, dye free day for mermaid...and she was INCREDIBLE. i even challenged her with removing my way-too-many-choices that i typically give and simply acted like a mama...as necessary giving direct commands...usually these demands would be met with an immediate fight...NOPE...not yesterday..."ok mommy" and "yes mam" was all i got...SO...if that's not evidence that diet makes a difference...i don't know what is...i am tempted to schedule an infraction a month from now and video tape the results...i am willing to bet that would make some sceptics become believers...but i am too scared to intentionally cause her to feel awful. we did that with j-bob once, and i cried on the floor while we were time-out holding him as my orally defensive child tried to bite me...it was a night-mare...i kept telling him: i am so sorry...mommy is so sorry...we will NEVER give you milk again!!

which leads me to my last thought...i retract thinking my daughter is ASD...i think lots of kids being labeled ASD are really environmentally and chemically toxic children whose bodies cannot handle/absorb/process the world we are throwing them into or more like throwing into them. and not only our children are being affected...how many parents are daily swallowing pills to help us cope...would we not also benefit from evaluating what we put inside our bodies?? what's amazing to me is that i have the faith and first-hand view of a changed diet's benefits for my son...why has it taken me another year to realize that mermaid's behavior: constant unhappiness, fit-ful sleep, drastic mood-swings, asthma, etc. could be the result of what i was putting into her body...i get so angry with people who roll their eyes, change the subject, and patronize me when i talk about j-bob's diet...yet...i have been so reluctant to do the same for mermaid...

i am next...my entire life i have struggled with my tummy hurting, sinus problems, mood swings, cloudy memory, my skin burning, random rashes, etc...are any of you screaming: gluten, milk, food dyes...?? well..if you are not...then you need to go back to the beginning of my blog and read every single post...then...i bet you'll be willing to take the plunge with me. i have 8 more coffees on the coffee card my mom just bought me...i am pledging when that card is finished...i will go gfcf-dye free, too. (sometimes i can handle soy...will probably rotate it unless i have issues)...if any of you have similar issues...feel free to join me...let's say...october 1 is the d-day..ironically...it was one year ago i started j-bob...i should blog next time about specific things we've seen changed in him...it's totally amazing...really...God is so incredibly amazing...it was those nights of constant screaming and no sleep that led me to my knees begging my God to please lead me to the right answer with j-bob...here i am in the same place with mermaid...i am so excited to see what He does in her life this next year...i believe with all my heart that my sweet happy little girl has been hidden inside all along...she's just needed a break from her body's chemical...biological reaction to certain foods...just as jaden's mind was freed...i believe merci's spirit will be freed...it seems so incredibly weird...a little too simple (or not simple at all!)...

sigh...happy eating! btw...why do we need yellow-5 in freaking lemon pepper?? anyone?? and to top it all off...good old fashioned canned fruit medley...in pear juice...yep...cherries are colored artificially...you know b/c if the cherry isn't red enough...we'll take it back...GROAN!