well first things first...
saturday, in the midst of frenzied cleaning...the mermaid starting asking some tough questions...they got my attention, so i slowed what i was doing and answered them...
my almost four year old daughter was curious about how Jesus felt about men who don't like Him or are mean to Him...i explained that it breaks Jesus' heart, but He still loves them...that's why He came...because we all make bad choices sometime...anyhow...Heaven was addressed (again by her questioning)...she said she wanted to go to Heaven and live with Jesus...so we prayed for Jesus to come and live in her heart forever...
it was incredible...right in the middle of a busy saturday afternoon full of chores and checklists...my baby girl asked Jesus into her heart...how thankful i am to have been apart of that decision....
you know...just relating that story makes the financial pressures of today seem so insignificant...how thankful i am for my children...and for my amazing husband who constantly sacrifices for the sake of "recovering" our children...and who so unnecessarily carries the financial burden on his shoulders...may God bless him and reveal to him that he can cast that burden somewhere else...that we aren't suffering as a family...rather...working together and leaning on Him...sigh...i woke up this morning thinking i had so little when in fact...i have so much...
my big decision is continuing school next semester...we are officially down to one car as of today...and my going to school has placed a tremendous financial burden on my family...am i wrong...rushing...not listening to God...should i be focused on the sacrifice of today for the blessing of tomorrow...finishing school would nearly double our income...do i really want to work...am i supposed to be satisfied with near poorness...figuring out how to make it as a stay-at-home-mom...sigh...is God asking me to quit school one more time?? or am i just not trusting He will provide me with the means to finish...sigh, sigh, sigh.
i have struggled with this since giving birth...can mommies be professionals AND mommies...i know it happens everyday...but my personality isn't very good at balance...HA...just thinking of me being balanced makes me laugh...kindof an all-or-nothing girl...oh well...right now i just need to pray for God to help me get back and forth to UALR for one more month...i have worked way too hard to not finish this semester...blessings...focus on my blessings...they are many...many indeed...
3 comments:
OH MY GOODNESS! Are you inside my head? We too are making the decision as to whether I keep going to school next semester. Last Tuesday Mark's car died and we are now down to one. Seems like I always hear twilight zone music when I read your blog!!!
Praise the Lord! The heavens are alive with dancing and singing at the mermaid's decision. God is so good! He always has the answers! Know that the Kyzer household is celebrating this new life in Christ and will keep her firmly in our prayers as she grows into a woman of God.
What a wonderful, sweet story about Mermaid! :) God is so good!
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