oh. i. miss. florida.
there i said it...we just got back...and i am too lazy to post pics...but i promise some soon.
we had an amazing visit with the family! the kiddos are absolutely in love...
and my home church...oh my home church...i looked at OA during the first worship song on sunday and immediately knew what he was thinking...it's been too long...we miss our church family...we miss our spiritual growth...it almost seems as if God has intentionally not allowed us to spread our roots too deep here...and God is in our church in arkansas...but our souls sing the same harmony as our church family in florida...and what a beautiful sound to my ears...
sigh...but there is so much i love about arkansas...such a hard decision...one that can't be made anytime soon...but i foresee a move in the next few years...anyhow.
this trip has been a huge leap in proof of j-bob's recovery...he had NOT ONE meltdown...and talk about changing of routines...well...i take that back...there was one night he cried because he wanted 16 cedarwood...but it was late, and he was exhausted...oh and sick the ENTIRE time! all week i have been thinking about how i feel like i am finally gripping autism instead of autism gripping me...to the naked eye...i believe the only differences one would immediately notice about my dear son are that he wears glasses and eats a special diet...other than that...he just has a few quirky social oddities that may or may not leave a person wondering...
the unsatisfied mother in me wants his baby-ish voice to go away (only bc of peer reactions)...his extreme literalness to soften...the guarantee that he will never ever be the butt of some evil-doer's jokes...but the eternally grateful exceptionally amazed mother in me is relishing over every single solitary accomplishment that child has busted his arse to gain. and my arse...my arse was knocked upside down a dozen times (or more!) in the last five years...yet my arse kept dusting itself off (God's Grace) and pushing ahead (God's Mercy)...all those tears, hours researching, and intuition following have finally started to have their pay-off (God's Love)...i simply am amazed at what has transpired in my life...i am more amazed that my husband and i have survived...and remain more in love...hand-in-hand today than we did 9 lustful years ago (God's Grace, Mercy, and Love).
and that doesn't even half way account for the changes in my darling angel of a princess mermaid...she wore a tiara or princess dress every where we went...and how fitting...not 6 months ago...i was banging my head (literally) against a wall in desperation over her behavior...and today...she's just a normal little four year old girl...sigh...(God's Provision).
tonight. i. am. thankful.
4 comments:
Yea! I'm thankful, too!
Oh I didn't know you went to Florida,,,,,good ole days. Soooo much fun.
Um...Florida misses you too. Or at least some of here do! :)
Such a sweet thankful spirit! It seeps through the written words. God is way too good to us, isn't He? I praise Him for the progress He is making in your family, I praise Him for the strength and wisdom He gives you so that you can continue on. God bless you all on these cold winter days.
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