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so...i dream of sending birthday cards, calling family and friends, letting the kiddos chat with their very loved cousins weekly...but i don't...

honestly, i rarely know what day of the week it is lately...i am missing appointments...rescheduling therapies...praying that i can at least remember when it's Wednesday...as i teach the preschool class...

so...here is my attempt at saving face...some catching up if you will...i am in the process of importing 240 pictures...no that wasn't a typo...my dear son...almost five years old...sigh...for real...i really just sighed out loud...the-mom-in-denial-that-kids-grow-up-sigh...oh...i just did it again...really...i may have to start medicating myself...i am really not ready for my babies to not be babies...OH...and they already aren't babies...how thankful i am that my husband came home at two am in the morning while i was still pregnant with jaybob and woke me up to tell me that he felt like God was letting him know that he would do whatever it took for me to not have to send my bundle of joy to daycare (no judgement here on daycares...simply...i have dreamed of being a mom my whole life). i love my husband...because he truly has stood by that...and he works so hard...and he is such an amazing father...deeper sigh...i am so blessed!

ok ok...back to the subject...my dear son...has a real gift for photography...we've tried buying him the kid cameras, but they simply aren't good enough for him...he always ends up using mine anyway...so i just taught him to be careful...and hand over my camera at request...well...look what he took:

i am not kidding...he took this...his eye is amazing...don't get me wrong...there are plenty of fuzzy pictures...and most of his pictures consist of pokemon figurines and various other interests...brown blankie for one...but this one...it's amazing...

now...i will begin immediately hydrating myself as my skin is clearly in need...not to mention maybe this year i will stick with my new year's resolution of at least every other night washing my face before bed...sorry solar...i know you are cringing right now...you did in fact teach me better than that...i just have to go with the old stand by that's saved me a lot lately...i am hippie...what can i say...i don't have a high priority on hygiene...

anyhow...at least my husband is gorgeous...keeps the eyes off me...but my son...i feel his love in this picture...his appreciation...his devotion to his daddy and mommy...he does love us so much...and it's so pure...so innocent:

i sorry mommy...i will not bweak your heawrt anymore...i not be angwy anymore...

mommy...i wuv you...daddy...i wuv you...

at least 50 times a day...you always know when he is having fun...you get serenaded with this admission of love over and over...

so...lately i have been drinking in alot of what i do have...celebrating the little joys of life...i don't care what day of the week it is...i love my family...mermaid's story will be told tomorrow...she is as intensely amazing as ever...purple sunglasses...brother loving little girl...sighsighsighsigh...