you know when you can feel yourself slowly unraveling? i've kept it all together much longer than usual...i think the glue has been extreme irritability...but not this morning. God woke me up early...i felt my heart soften a bit.
sigh
as the OA pulled out of the driveway on his way to the doctor with both kids sick and screaming for me...it finally happened...no anger, no exhaustion, no bitterness...just good old fashioned tears...the streaming kind...which led me directly to my couch...which led my face to my hands and my heart to my God...
Lord, i know You are in control. please give us our light at the end of the tunnel, soon. or maybe this is the light...me in complete surrender? it's easier to surrender myself...much more difficult for me to surrender my family...still amazes me Your willingness to surrender Your Son. i probably would have opted for that smite button i imagine is tucked under Your throne!!
let it rain.
My Quivers
2 comments:
Oh dear...is everyone sick? You, too? Big hugs to you today. xxoo
I'm so sorry you are having a rough time. Sometimes we just need to let it all out. Hugs to you.
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